Do you believe that heaven and hell is a place on earth?
FUCK IT ALL FUCK THIS WORLD FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!!!
Don’t belong, don’t exist, don’t give a shit, don’t fucking judge me!!!
AND DON’T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME
ARGHHHHH!
These were the words written on my pencil case in year 7 from a all time favourite band of mine, Slipknot 🏻
I grew up with the fear of Hell, judgement and eternal torment instilled into my brain from a very young age…
Needless to say my younger years were pretty fucked up. Every thing I loved basically meant I was fucked…
Even my thoughts meant I had earned myself a 1 way ticket to eternal damnation & suffering🏻
Pretty nice way to grow up huh…
While other kids would play and just be kids, 1 of the very few memories I still have of my childhood, is that of going to bed at fearing that if I died in my sleep that night, I would be waking up in eternal hellfire
With no way out and an eternity of suffering and torture worse than anything I could ever imagine…
And by this stage with the stories I had learnt about the devil and hell, I was able to imagine some pretty fucked up shit of what an eternity in hell could mean for me!
I’ve spent so much of my life working on undoing the fear and limiting belief programs that I’ve had since childhood.
Over the past 10 years especially I have delved so deep into my psyche & faced off with my greatest fears which had even lead me to a self facilitated HELL ON EARTH experience I had where I journeyed on mushrooms and fucking died!
And I mean I died fucking hard!!!
As in I had my physical body torn apart (pretty fucking painful… not something I’d recommend )
And after facing off with some demons, I found myself in an eternal abyss of isolation & suffering with nothing but my hell fearing thoughts of what was to come to keep me occupied
And of course the reality of how alone I was (my greatest fear FYI) and how there was nothing I could do but accept my punishment for not getting the whole Christianity thing right.
Fucked up right!?
After this I ended up with like a good 6 months of PTSD wondering if I was actually back on earth, or whether I just thought I was as a tease from a righteous and judgemental God…
I wondered if I was stuck in a eternal loop of thinking I was on earth, while really this was my hell being experienced in the physical as a teaser to make my missing out on heaven on earth & all that I desired even more painful…
By the time I snapped out of “hell” trip I found myself back in my house with walls covered in blood from the scar I still wear on my hand today from smashing the fuck out of the 68 inch 3D tv that I had only had for a bout a month (this was the very place that the devil emerged from on this wild and wacky adventure of mine…)
This wasn’t the last time I would face off with my demons and the fears embedded into my subconscious mind…
In the years to follow I would go on a journey, delving into the depths and darkest corners of my unconscious belief systems as I worked to make friends with and overcome my demons and all the fears that came with doing this work.
It was through these experiences that I realised that myself, along with so many others were in fact in a living hell while being here on earth.
Hell was not a place that we get to when we die, it was a place that so many of us were living in on a day to day basis!!!
And the same goes for heaven, a small percentage are now living in their very own heaven on earth!
A place that I’ve come to know exists inside me, that I too experience and can come back to at times…
Making this my natural state of being is the mission I am still working towards myself, as I do my bit to lead others into their very own experience of glory!
As this earth is heaven, it is hell, it is what we make it & in my own personal experience in my time here on earth,
My ride has been an ascension from hell!!!
And as I’ve worked on my fucked up conditioning and fear based programming I’ve been able to realise for myself the eternal truth that
Heaven is a place on earth
But not only this, but as the great masters have said time and time again that “the kingdom of heaven is within”
Heaven, hell, pleasure, pain, torment and peace is not external from you
All of this is cultivated from within
Any external experiences of this are fleeting… they come and go as the only constant in this physical world is change
All emotions & experiences that we experience in the physical come and go
The only way to create a lasting change, is to cultivate what we desire most from within and move towards it 🏻
Hell or heaven on earth, the choice has always been ours!
And right now as a collective we are being asked to make that decision… Will you focus on and feed your fears as the media and “the powers that be” would like you to do…
Or can you make the decision to come from a place of love and step into your truth as you become empowered?
By David Berriman
